Let it roll....

I have been told I can be rather emotional. Okay maybe sometimes overly emotional. Well, maybe I am…a little. Or maybe sometimes a little more than a little.

The point here is, when something do not go as I had planned - I need to gather my nerves and learn to keep my emotions in check.  Not an easy thing to do, particularly considering I turn another year older in a few days, on to a number that is rather daunting if you ask me.

I’m a mother to three boys you see, so between them and their father, I am the only creature in the family who tends to have her emotions running helter skelter at the slightest disruption of stability. That is perhaps my problem, by nature I am not one who loves adventure and spontaneity - I prefer stability. I don’t deal with abrupt changes very well. So the drill when something goes out of whack is, I usually I get a little upset, feel a little out of control, yak a lot while my sons and husband, bless them, just laugh (or get annoyed) and tell me - there she goes again. I do regain control of the situation and soon enough will have my brain in overdrive, salvaging plans or making new ones. But first I need to just let it out of my system.

It’s how I tick, period. Yea, so maybe it’s not exactly the smartest way to deal with a sudden change of plans. I do handle it – just after I let my emotions roll.

Like today. We are scheduled to leave for a weekend break in a couple days, a much anticpated one at that, due to several reasons. But, as it now turns out, there is a possibility it may not happen. Ok, so if it’s not in the cards, then it’s not in the cards. We will have another go at family time, God willing. But for that short span of time when it first hits that a plan carefully laid out is thrown askew, I breathe heavy and start yapping...persistently. Once I am in control again, I can see the bigger picture with much clarity. Heck, I can even get my all righteous self kick in and remind me - Man proposes, God disposes. See, I sound so calm and level headed like that.

Hmm, but first, I let it roll.