Me....jumpy..??

You know the man I married..the one I call SI..this morning he gently asked me “sayang, why are you so jumpy these days..” I didn’t take that remark too kindly but I didn’t fight it either and he left me to ponder over it.

Am I jumpy lately..? Hmm..maybe a little..” (yea,yea, to which my boys will probably go “ A LITTLE???” )Ok, ok, so maybe I have been just a tad egdy lately. I haven’t the faintest idea why though. Maybe it’s this terrible cold I’m having. That splitting headache that sometimes comes with it, sniffling and coughing away with that scratchy feeling down your throat..know that feeling..? Generally I feel quite contented with what life has to offer right now....and please, I am nowhere near menopausal laaa….Maybe it’s the fact that school holidays are here..and with the 3 boys who think it's perfectly alright to play ball in the house, I guess that justifies a certain degree of jumpiness….?

My kids are my joy, there is no denying the fact. But there are times the things they do drive you up the wall and make you lose your better sense of judgment. And then there is the father..the one I’d rather not go head-on against, the very same one that I have some issues with..and what’s the biggest bone of contention right now..why, puff the magic dragon of course..except in this case, puff is more like an ugly sinister monster that just won’t go away. That lighting up habit of his..the very same habit he managed to beat more than a decade ago, in the land where smokers were marginalized (and where smokers at gatherings were most likely Malaysian students..)..That exact habit he picked right up again within weeks after we reached Malaysian soil. Aaah…enuf said on that one. He knows how much the family detests it so I wish one day he’ll muster enough strength to finally stop. Although I must say his efforts of reducing doesn’t go unnoticed. For one, he now uses our bedroom toilet to pangsai because now he doesn’t need to light up before going!

And the kids – my precious boys..they have a knack of testing my patience just when I am having the most terrible day. Work is not always a joy so imagine having a bad day and then coming home to face parenting challenges..not fun at all.. you guys know that. And the recent episode involving my son’s first major setback in his life. Although as I had written in my last blog entry, no doubt a blessing in disguise, nonetheless it was certainly filled with its fair share of anxious moments for me. In the latest Jodi Picoult book I’m reading, I was so taken by this line..

Like it or not, you acquire a sixth sense when it comes to your children, viscerally feeling their joy, and frustration and the sharp blow to the heart when someone (or something) causes them pain.

All that, plus this awful cold...and he asks me why I'm jumpy...?

Thank goodness for the dim sum date with my girlfriends tomorrow....!! A sure antidote for jumpiness...